Happy Thanksgiving to all fellow Americans. To everyone else in the universe, happy Thursday. Today, my country celebrates the harsh and hard times of the Pilgrims. It also celebrates with thanks that the local Indian tribes took pity on the English and helped them out.
But today, I'm happy. I will admit, I had a moment earlier when I wanted to kick my male out of the kitchen, however, it's because I'm not used to having someone else using everything and NOT cleaning it up as he goes while we're both cooking. Beyond that however, I'm thankful.
Thankful for my day job, thankful for my family, thankful for my wonderful friends whom I cherish. I'm very thankful for my male, Sinjin. Very thankful. He's made my life much happier in ways I'm just now realizing and cherishing. He dressed up for me today-- in a pair of khaki pants, a black polo shirt and looked every handsome and elegant. Can we say I was thinking of skipping the food and going straight to dessert? *grins* More than that-- I realize how much I adore the male who has become a big part of my life. He's healed me in ways I hadn't realized I needed healing. He's been by my side no matter what and trust me- I've pushed him away at times because I felt if he got too close he'd leave and I couldn't take being hurt on that level.
Yet he's still here. We still have our moments of confusion and we negotiate a lot of things in advance because it's just the right thing to do. He's treated me better than anyone in my life, and considering I know many people and have been with fantastic people-- it's saying a lot. He makes me happy on levels that make me smile and scare me silly. It makes me wonder- do I deserve this happiness that I'm feeling while at the same time, not wanting to do anything to lose it.
Thanksgiving is a time of reflection- on family, friends, lovers and more. I miss my mom desperately- I miss the annual "How many minutes per pound of Gobble gobble?" call. I miss her more as this year has gone on than I did when she died. Her being dead was okay, but her not being here for everything- that's where I'm suffering still. Who knew my doctors would be right on that? But through it all, the male in the kitchen doing dishes right now has been at my side. He's held me while I've cried, he's argued with me when I was being stupid. He's even compromised on things he hadn't thought he could- just to help me. I love my male. I really do. Funny thing is- he says that I'm the one doing the work, he's just there, but I know in my heart, if he wasn't in my life- I'd not have been this healed.
May your life and your day be filled with happiness, peace and a chance to let past wrongs go by the wayside- never to be brought back. Make peace today and use it as a chance to bring a sense of happiness and love in your life.
As for the Sex Ed with Mistress Cynnara- I'll post that tomorrow night.
Happy Turkey Day, everyone! (continue reading &aquo;)
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